Tuesday, December 16, 2008

A year of firsts

Sorry I've been mia. Work has kept me very busy up until yesterday. I'm not complaining. I'm so very grateful to still have my job especially in light of the fact that many friends, family, co-workers and colleages are losing or have lost theirs. I'm trying hard not to get overwhelmed but some days its hard than others. I've been given notice that I might only have a couple of months before I need to start looking, depending on funding. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and am sending a blanket prayer to anyone who finds themselves in a similar situation.

Mavis (Coltsfoot Corgi by the Northrun Lights) - Dec. 22, 1992 - Dec. 14, 2007

The year of firsts reference is to our first year without Mavis our beloved Pembroke Welsh Corgi we had to put to sleep last December. Not a single "first" went by without someone in our family remembering it. The first Christmas was the hardest, the first time we dropped food on the floor and she wasn't there to slurp it up, the first snow that she didn't get to roll in, the first trip to the beach without her, the first fourth of July that we didn't have to calm her down from the fireworks, the first Thanksgiving. The last of the firsts was this weekend - the first anniversary of her leaving. I still get choked up when I think of her. I miss her so very much. The Things want another dog and I can't bring myself to do it yet because I'm not ready to have to make the decision to take a life again anytime soon. I doubt myself everyday, that I did the right thing. I pray for her forgiveness if I was wrong. Our lives are richer for her having shared it with us and yet missing something now that she's gone.

Okay, this entire post isn't an entire downer. Just needed to get some stuff off my chest. Since I posted last a lot has happened. I celebrated my 39th birthday (40 is coming fast), Thing One got his learner's permit (yikes!), Thing Two is hitting puberty (ack!) and I've cast on for a few projects. See, I am still knitting...

Alan Dart Advent Penguin

Handknit Hokie Chalet Socks

Walk in the Woods Jacket

The penguin was part of a birthday gift to a dear friend, the chalet socks are for me and hubby for the holidays and yes, the thrummed jacket is finally finished but I'm still weaving in a zillion ends.


Robin said...

Weird, I've been thinking a lot about Mavis myself here lately! Hugs to you and the family...you seriously need a Rudy hug!

Pam! said...

It took a while for us to get over losing Morgan-dog. We made the difficult decision to let her go in April '06 and we still think about her alot. These days the thoughts are funny and full of joy but that first 12-18 months was so tough.
Happy Holidays! and I love chalet socks!!

KnitNana said...

It's never easy. Losing BB, giving her the gift of release, was terribly hard, but I do know it was right. Be gentle with yourself, dear friend, they teach us much, our furbabies.

(and I covet that penguin...)
Do try to have lovely holidays, okay?
You're in my thoughts as we go thru this economic mess, so many of us holding our figurative breath to see if we're "next."

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